Right in Front of My Enemies
9th Sunday after Pentecost
July 29, 2012
First United Methodist Church
Decorah, IA
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Darkness Is My Only Companion
5th Sunday after Pentecost
Psalm 88
July 1, 2012
Rev. John M. Caldwell, PhD
First United Methodist Church
Decorah, Iowa
And here we are—back in the abyss! Like last week’s psalm, this one is located firmly in a pit. But things have gone from bad to worse. In Psalm 130, the psalmist understood that his suffering came from his own failure to keep covenant, he owned his guilt and he looked to God for forgiveness and rescue, confident that God would hear and respond. If this isn’t entirely comfortable for us—after all we are not fond of feeling guilty—at least we meet a familiar pattern. This is the pattern of the prayer for forgiveness and absolution. We meet that pattern in Advent and Lent and occasionally in other seasons. We recognize that we have failed to keep covenant. We name this failure before God and each other. We ask God to be restored to our covenant relationship. We then hear God’s forgiveness announced, both from the pulpit by the prayer leader and one-to-one as we share Christ’s peace with each other. We sin. We ask for forgiveness. We are forgiven. We go on. It is a clear—maybe the clearest—case of answered prayer.
Psalm 130 is a lament, but it has a happy outcome. About this the psalmist is completely confident. There is no such happy conclusion to Psalm 88. This psalm begins in the usual way. After you’ve read fifty or sixty laments you begin to see the pattern. This psalm begins with a cry to God, this one comes at night when all our problems seem bigger and our minds worry over them in circles without getting anywhere. The psalmist pleads for God’s listening ear.
Then, as we expect, the psalmist moves on to lay out the situation, the reason for the lament. The psalmist has a troubled heart, but perhaps there is more to it than that, although a troubled heart is no small matter. There is a great deal of death talk here: “my life draws near to Sheol (that was ancient Israel’s term the place of the dead where those who had died maintained a shadowy existence), I am counted among those who go down to the Pit...like those forsaken among the dead, like the slain that lie in the grave, like those whom you remember no more, for they are cut off from your hand.” Is the psalmist sick with some deadly illness? Or is he “dying” in some other way, perhaps because he has for reasons unknown become a social outcast? We don’t really know. The psalms work because they are detailed without being specific.
After the usual cry to God and the description of how things are for him, we begin to see just how much different this psalm is from Psalm 130. There the psalmist accepts the blame for her situation. Here, however, it is not the psalmist who is responsible for the approach of death. It is God who has caused it, God who is responsible for it, God who is being held accountable for it:“You have put me in the depths of the Pit, in the regions dark and deep. Your wrath lies heavy upon me, and you overwhelm me with all your waves.”
The worst of what God has done is to cause the alienation of the psalmist’s friends: “You have caused my companions to shun me; you have made me a thing of horror to them.”
Now, at this place in a lament we expect a shift: the psalmist should move on to make a request, listing the reasons why God should grant the request. And then comes a vow to offer praise and thanksgiving when the request has been granted. And finally, as if the request has already been granted, there is praise in the past tense.
But none of that happens in this psalm. Here the psalmist cries out again: “Every day I call on you, O Lord, I spread out my hands to you.”
Confronted with God’s silence, the psalmist doesn’t go away or—which amounts to the same thing—come up with all sorts of theological reasons why God won’t answer or perhaps already has. The psalmist can no longer afford polite conversation with God. The psalmist has cried out and God has not answered and when God does not answer, the psalmist calls out again.
This time it’s become desperate. There is time for God to act, but not much. A series of rhetorical questions makes it clear that if—or maybe it’s when—the psalmist dies, it will be too late. “Do you work wonders for the dead?” No. “Do the shades rise up to praise you?” No. Is your steadfast love declared in the grave or your faithfulness in Abaddon?” No. “Are your wonders known in the darkness, or your saving help in the land of forgetfulness?” No.
No, if God is going to act, it had better be soon. Soon it will be too late even for God’s power to make things better.
But there is still no answer. So the psalmist cries out again and the kid gloves come off: “O Lord, why do you cast me off? Why do you hide your face from me?...Your wrath has swept over me; your dread assaults destroy me....You have caused friend and neighbor to shun me; my companions are in darkness.”
That last phrase is sometimes translated as “darkness is my only companion.” Whichever it is, the last word in the psalm is darkness. I can’t help but be reminded of the darkness at the beginning of the book of Genesis, the darkness that was upon the face of the deep, the darkness that was dispelled when God spoke light into being. The psalmist has been returned to that primordial, chaotic darkness, before the world that could sustain human life was called into being. The psalmist has been unmade and no longer lives in the world that is home for the people of the covenant God.
Three times the psalmist has cried out to God, each time more urgently than the last. Three times the psalmist has been met with silence. The psalmist begins in the darkness of the abyss and ends in the abysmal darkness. The word of God for the people of God: Thanks be to God!
What is this psalm doing in the hymnal? To be sure, it’s not in our hymnal. It’s not in lectionary. But here it is in the Bible. What’s it doing there? It is after all, as Walter Brueggemann puts it so subtly, “an embarrassment to conventional faith.”1
He’s right. The conventions of faith are rather well established, if nowhere written down. That’s the thing about the things that go without saying: no one needs to say or write them. But we know that it’s not polite to address God as if we expected God to respond. It isn’t polite to address God with our raw and naked needs. It isn’t polite to bring our inability to manage without God’s help into the gathered assembly and lay it out in front of God and everyone. We feel a little embarrassed—or maybe it’s ashamed—about a breach of decorum of this magnitude.
We pray carefully. And if we are too overwhelmed to be able to pray carefully, we stay home, away from public worship until we get over it. We who would scream our lungs out at a football game or a swim meet, prefer our emotions in worship to be cooler and under our control. Yes, this psalm is “an embarrassment to conventional faith.”
But the psalmist doesn’t have time or space for worrying about conventions. The psalmist is not concerned with embarrassment, her own or anyone else’s. We know how much pain it would take for us to be in a place where we stopped worrying about convention or about being embarrassed.
The difference is, when the psalmist is in that place, he doesn’t dial 911. Or maybe I should say that he doesn’t just dial 911. He cries out to Yahweh. And when Yahweh doesn’t answer, he cries again. And when Yahweh still doesn’t answer, he cries yet again. He will keep crying until there is an answer. And silence is not an answer; silence is silence; silence is the failure to answer.
What’s this impolite prayer doing in the Bible? Well, to begin with, it’s telling the truth. Or at least a truth. Life is sometimes just like this. If you’re a seventh grade girl whose social life is subject to the strange winds that blow through middle schools and suddenly find yourself on the outside of every clique in school, the subject of chatter on Facebook, so that even your best friend is afraid to be with you, and you’ve done everything you know how to do and you’ve even prayed for things to change, but they don’t, then you know that this psalm tells the truth.
If you’re a man whose wife is dying of cancer, but the doctors make vague promises about new treatments, but they don’t work, and you’ve prayed, but she’s dying anyway, and your friends from the Thursday morning coffee shop group have stopped calling because they don’t know what to say, and you know that she’s dying and that you’ll dying with her, then you know that this psalm tells the truth. Biblical faith tells the truth, even when the truth is ugly. And sometimes the truth is ugly and the psalmist knows that it must be told.
But the psalmist also knows that this truth is not an abstraction and it’s not an objective fact. The truth isn’t just told; it’s told to someone. And the psalmist knows that the someone above all to whom the truth must be told is the covenant God of Israel.
Up against the wall, down a deep deep hole, on the brink of death, the psalmist knows that Israel always has to do with Yahweh, the people of God have to do with the God of the covenant, or, to move this to our own context, the Church of God always has to do with the God of the Church. Even when our backs are up against the wall. Especially when our backs are up against the wall, when it looks as though God has fled from us, forgotten us, or forsaken us. The psalmist does not have to figure it out. Sometimes, especially when the truth is ugly, it can’t be figured out. But even then, God can still be addressed, summoned, called and recalled into conversation.
Sometimes, when the truth is very ugly, and conventional faith has failed, and it’s time for impolite and desperate speech, the only faithful thing we can do, the faithful thing that we must do is to tell the truth of what it is like to be God’s people to the God whose people we are. And when that time comes, Psalm 88 will be here in the Bible right where it belongs. When that time comes, and we share the same anguish that led the psalmist to write it, it will become the vessel that holds our deepest pain and offers it to God. And then we will know why Psalm 88 is here and we will be able to say and from the heart,
The word of God for the people of God
Thanks be to God!