On Still Not Getting It
2nd
Sunday in Lent
Mark 10:32-52
February 21, 2016
Mark 10:32-52
February 21, 2016
Rev.
John M. Caldwell, PhD
First United Methodist Church
Decorah, Iowa
First United Methodist Church
Decorah, Iowa
The
disciples were confused and Jesus' other followers were afraid. That
about sums up the situation, doesn't? It's not a bad description of
how things stand with us either. Confused and afraid.
Oh,
we cover it well and so did the circles around Jesus, the inner
circle of the disciples, and the outer circle of his other followers.
The disciples were confused because they had their notions of what
God's anointed should be like. They lived as a subject people in a
colony in someone else's empire and they didn't like it one bit.
Roman power and the collaborators among their own people kept them
under their thumbs and they wanted freedom. The experience of Jews
living in the provinces of Palestine, though, was that any credible
effort in the direction of the freedom they believed was their
birthright was met with Roman ruthlessness and Roman iron.
Power
was needed to oppose power, ruthlessness to oppose ruthlessness,
steel to oppose steel. But Jesus talked of being killed before the
battle had even been joined. This defeatism had them confused.
Jesus'
other followers were afraid, afraid of the violence that could break
out at any minute. One provoked the eagle of Rome at one’s own
risk, but Jesus, the man at the center of a movement as he was, would
not bring down destruction simply on his own head, but on theirs as
well. As much as they liked him, as much as they could hear hymns of
liberation in the words he spoke, as much as they could see God's
dream taking shape before their very eyes in the healings that he
performed, they were afraid that it would all blow away like the
figures that can be seen in the clouds that are there one moment and
gone the next. They loved this dream but they were afraid of what
would happen when the battle trumpets blew and they woke up and the
dream faded into memory and they were left with a violent and
oppressive reality.
Perhaps
Jesus' other followers took the journey south, the road up to
Jerusalem, as an opportunity to slip away from Jesus, to return to
their homes or to their home towns and pick up the threads of the
lives they had abandoned to follow Jesus.
But
Jesus' disciples, that inner circle of the women and men who had been
with him the longest, maybe they were too identified with Jesus to
slip away. James and John seem to have been part of an inner circle
within the inner circle, but they were confused and afraid like
everyone else.
Fear
and confusion are difficult feelings to deal with. I think, too, that
fear and confusion are often linked. At least I've seldom felt one
without experiencing the other. Fear is what we feel when we are
threatened. We all know that it is a very basic emotion. We used to
say that fear leads to the fight or flight response, but recent work
with returning Iraq and Afghanistan war veterans suggests that it
might be more accurate to speak of the fight, flight, or freeze
response. These responses are all very primitive and start in the
part of our brains that we have in common with lizards and birds.
When we are thoroughly afraid, we become bird-brained, twitchy and
reactive.
My
theory is that, in the flood of chemicals released in our brains by
fear and our responses to fear, the part of our brain that analyzes
and classifies the things in the world around us becomes overwhelmed.
We are no longer able to separate
things that we would under normal circumstances. When we are unable
to tell one thing from another, when they blend into each other, when
they are fused together, they are literally "con-fused".
And that's when we are confused.
Confusion
is uncomfortable. We'll do a lot to resolve it. When we're afraid in
a group, one of the favorite things for humans to do is to look to
powerful figures who will tell us what to do. Or we seek to become
those figures ourselves.
This,
I think, is why it makes sense that James and John took Jesus aside
and asked for him to make them his Secretary of Defense and Secretary
of Homeland Security. It was a grab for glory, sure, but it was also
a plea to give them the helm, to put them in charge (under Jesus of
course), to give them the power to set a course that would give them
a way out of their fear and confusion. Maybe in this way they could
put an end to all Jesus' talk about dying at the hands of the
authorities.
Jesus
answers them by asking whether they can drink his cup and be baptized
with his baptism. We all assume he is talking about their dying the
sort of death he will die and we're probably right. But drinking wine
is not a way to resolve confusion, quite the contrary. And being
baptized, being lowered under the water, doesn't soothe fears. It is
as if Jesus is telling James and John, "You want power as a way
to protect yourself from fear and confusion, but if you are following
me you will go through more not less fear and confusion." That
may be a stretch, but this is the unfamiliar meaning I'm now hearing
in these familiar words.
When
the rest of the inner circle found out what James and John have done
they were angry. Why? Was it simple jealousy? Was it because they
didn't think of it first? Was it because the want an "open
process" for the selection of Jesus' cabinet ministers? Or is it
simply that when fear and confusion increase, the first casualty is
mutual trust?
But
the way out of the uncomfortable place that the disciples are in,
this place of fear and confusion, is not authoritarian leadership.
The way out of the uncomfortable place is mutual
care and service. I say "mutual" because care and service
are often not mutual. Care and service change nothing when done by
people at the bottom of the social pyramid for the people at the top.
Jesus suggests that mutual care and service are the path through fear
and confusion. They remind us of who Jesus is. They remind us of who
we are. They focus us on our core values. They are like a light in
the darkness.
If
we decide that being powerful, or tough on our enemies, or ruthless
in the pursuit of the way we think things ought to be in the world or
in our community or in our church, are the way to be, then we will
have a lot of company. Every ruler, every petty tyrant, and every
local despot does the same.
We
are easily blinded by the images of power, toughness and ruthlessness
conjured up in stump speeches and political ads. The disciples and we
are all in need of healing from this blindness. Like the blind beggar
Bartimaeus, when we are healed we will be able to follow Jesus.
Jesus' path is vulnerability, tenderness, and mercy. That path leads
to Jerusalem, to rejection, to suffering, even to death. And then to
resurrection life. That path, the way of vulnerability, tenderness,
and mercy, that and no other is our
way.
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